The past couple of days here have been somewhat emotional for me. I am not sure what to expect from Elden (whether or not his progress or regress is normal) and of course I get worried about him in general. On Tuesday Elden received a head ultrasound to check for brain bleeds. When he was first born he had an ultrasound and it came back clear, but they did a follow-up to just make sure things were still looking good. They found that he now has a level 2 brain bleed. There is blood along one side of one of his ventricles. He received another ultrasound today, but I don't know the results yet. If it doesn't get "bigger" then it's of no concern and should go away. That is what I am hoping for!

He was put back under the bili-lite again today. He is digesting my milk okay, but not all the way. He is not good about stooling on his own, and I hope he can get that hang of that. I think once he gets good at stooling on his own, he will digest the milk better and get off the bili-lite. Also the doctor told me something about his acid levels and how they aren't right, so they are checking that out too.

I did get to hold Elden once today and that was nice. During the day I am at the hospital. All I can do right now for him is change his diaper, moisten his lips with some saline/water?, and hold him. The nurses there seem to do a great job, so that is comforting. There are two nurses there that are twin sisters. They are so cute and nice. Elden has a primary care nurse--one that "signs up" to be his nurse all the time. She works at night though, so I haven't met her. I am going to have to go and met her with Lee sometime.

It seems I am quite famous here at the hospital...well, with the people that my doctor works with. I went to my doctor's office today (it's in a building connected to the hospital) because I thought I had a urinary tract infection. I was talking to a nurse telling her my situation and she knew who I was and I had never met her before. It was kind of funny. She did a test for me and looks as if I don't have one so that is good!

Another little story, when I was being prepped for my c-section, the doctors couldn't find my previous c-section scar. I wasn't surprised at all. After I was completely healed from having the twins and my belly mostly went down, I couldn't even see all of it! If you happen to be in Memphis and in need of a c-section, let me know and I can give you the info about my OB doctor.
Pumping is going well and I am now needing to store my milk here at the house. I have a lot at the hospital! They are very accommodating at the hospital and at the house for people like me who want to pump. I may have mentioned this before, but the hospital gives me three free meals a day because I am pumping and they have a "lactation" room in the NICU that I can use. Here at the house they have the same pumping machine, just like the one at the hospital, that I can use whenever I need it.

It is somewhat ironic that everything I have never wanted to experience (and never knew I could experience!) with pregnancy and beyond has pretty much happened. Financially, the timing couldn't have been better though. And Lee and I are SO thankful about that! And with having four healthy kids, that seems to help too. I think I would have been very devastated if all this happened with my first child!

Last night I did my laundry and watched American Idol. It was quite nice doing laundry. I haven't done any for about 6 weeks! I did help Lee fold my clothes after he washed and dried them when I was at the hospital. But I am kind of weird and don't mind doing laundry. The one thing I do detest about laundry: red, orange and grease stains. So maybe that's three things, but that is the only problem with laundry for me (most of the time).

Tomorrow is Friday and I am very glad about that!